So for the last seven or so months I have become a working girl. I thought that I would make money and that I would be happier. With money I would be able to go out more, do the things that I want to do along with buy the things that I want to.
The reality is this though...They are right when they say that money can't buy happiness. I think I was happier when I was unemployed and broke. Granted I had great parents to help me through that period, but I think that I was so much happier. Perhaps though it was a better time period and has nothing to do with whether or not I was employed.
Back when I was unemployed the boyfriend was studying law. I think that perhaps that is what I miss I miss the carefree days of life and my relationship. Suddenly both of us in the relationship had to be adults. Suddenly the issues and stuff on our plates got bigger. More was being demanded of us to hold the once easy and carefree relationship together. I wasn't ready.
What I had prepared for was the fact he was going to be an hour away rather than four. That was all that I had prepared for. I didn't prepare for the working, the distance, and least of all the arguing. After a while it became us standing on opposing sides of the street. We weren't communicating. We were staring at each other but we weren't communicating.
Things seem easier from the other side of the fence. What we were not doing was painting our side of the fence green. We seemed to have stopped doing that. I had stopped looking forward to seeing him. I wasn't singing in the car with that giant smile on my face anymore. I then became resentful. Resentful that after working throughout the day I was now in a car driving to see him. It wasn't fun anymore it started to feel like a chore. We didn't have the time we used to together.
I wasn't listening anymore.
The reality is this though...They are right when they say that money can't buy happiness. I think I was happier when I was unemployed and broke. Granted I had great parents to help me through that period, but I think that I was so much happier. Perhaps though it was a better time period and has nothing to do with whether or not I was employed.
Back when I was unemployed the boyfriend was studying law. I think that perhaps that is what I miss I miss the carefree days of life and my relationship. Suddenly both of us in the relationship had to be adults. Suddenly the issues and stuff on our plates got bigger. More was being demanded of us to hold the once easy and carefree relationship together. I wasn't ready.
What I had prepared for was the fact he was going to be an hour away rather than four. That was all that I had prepared for. I didn't prepare for the working, the distance, and least of all the arguing. After a while it became us standing on opposing sides of the street. We weren't communicating. We were staring at each other but we weren't communicating.
Things seem easier from the other side of the fence. What we were not doing was painting our side of the fence green. We seemed to have stopped doing that. I had stopped looking forward to seeing him. I wasn't singing in the car with that giant smile on my face anymore. I then became resentful. Resentful that after working throughout the day I was now in a car driving to see him. It wasn't fun anymore it started to feel like a chore. We didn't have the time we used to together.
I wasn't listening anymore.
So now the question is: Where do we go from here?
